Uninspired

I remember back in high school I was super stuck on Tired and Uninspired because the boy I was into dug that song. I've always been pretty easily influenced.. especially when it came to people that interested me. Whether I wanted myself to be like the parts of them I admired or I just was so stuck on how cool someone was, everything they were interested suddenly became cool too? I don't really know where I'm going with this.

Yesterday when I was driving, I was mostly just thinking how surreal this life was because I have so many things I would've cried myself to sleep begging for not too long ago. It sounds so dumb but it's incredibly true. It's moments where I really get some time to be who I am and do something I love, like wailing in the car to bands I haven't listened to in years, like Yellowcard and Senses Fail that throw me back to times when these were my guides when I was looking for some solutions to some first world problems... but treated them as if they were third world problems.

Anyway, I am thankful for the health of my family, my relationship with all the people I hold close, being able to take a study break and walk around a bougie little downtown area next to the coast, and not needing to worry about much of anything except for my academics and career. Life is good, I don't ever want to ever take this for granted.

Also, I can't believe I'm going to Outsidelands. I get all jittery with the thought of seeing Disclosure live........