dear god,

it would be nice if you could grant me some mother fucking sleep.

4-5 hours a night is not enough,
and it's not like I want to be awake that many hours of the day right now anyway.

thanks..


HOLY FUCK I JUST WANT TO SLEEP LIKE 13 HOURS SO I CAN GET OVER THIS,
WHY CAN'T YOU AT LEAST GIVE ME THIS, GOD

LIKE, PLEASE.
PLEASE.
THERE'S SO MUCH GOING ON IN MY MIND.
WHY CAN'T I HAVE, AT THE VERY LEAST, TO BE NOT AWAKE FOR SO MANY HOURS OF THE DAY.

WAKING UP EVERY HOUR, AFTER 4AM EVERY NIGHT, IS NOT COOL.


just fuck everything right now.

i mean.. seriously. please. i'm trying so hard to be good this time, i'm trying so hard not to cry all the time, i'm trying so hard not to fall apart, the best thing i can get right now, is some mother fucking sleep to make these days seem a little shorter.

please.. just give this if i can't have what i really want.


at least music is making me feel better.
and instead of texting him every time i miss him,
typing in here is making me feel better.
at least things are leaving my mind.