Tuesday 9:15PM

But in my mind, it still feels like the weekend just barely ended.. or did it ever really begin?

Who knows, all that is certain is that once the weekday kicks it into gear, life leaves me in the dust and I'm baffled at how fast the time flies.

Most of these nights once school starts, I look back at my day and feel like I've accomplished nothing but can't seem to recall what I did with all my time. Life just finds a way to fill it now.

I find myself putting a lot of thought into my purchases, nulling over them back and forth until I'm certain I want it or don't want it. On average now, I spend about 2-3 weeks thinking about my purchases before making them, besides the basics in life. I mean, I don't think for 2 weeks if I want that steak for dinner this week. But, more like if I see a necklace, no matter how cheap, I will let it sit in the back of my mind for at least 3 weeks, and up to who knows how long before I decide that I want it. I make sure I really want it, and if I am not sure, it sits in my mind until I finally decide that I want it. I've said want a lot. But it's the only way I can explain. In the back of my mind, there are still things I wanted that I wanted 6 months ago, but if I can't feel like I want it badly or incorporate it in my life enough, I let it sit on standby or I reject it because obviously I don't want it enough to think about using it any where near a day-to-day basis. A perfect example of this sort of irrational rational behavior of mine is that I really wanted these two necklaces. I mean, I really did, I told my mom and my sister and I told them I'm saving up for these inexpensive necklaces and I let them sit in my mind for a few weeks, I let them sit in my mind for the additional holiday break afterwards, and I let them sit for a few more weeks as the school quarter started and I decided, I want them so I'm going to get them. And I was so right! I wear one at least every day and see myself gravitating towards them when I don't have them.

This sort of purchase making decision is something I want to take more seriously and maybe not into every purchase, but every "luxury" purchase. Luxury being defined as shit that sits outside of the basics of food, shelter, and school/work necessities.

 In my Marketing class today (also want to talk about this later), we took quizzes that labeled who we were.. kind of like personality tests. First I got a result that I didn't felt like was really me, so I cheated, went back, and retook it. I got something that was more fitting.

The first result was describing someone that was super frivolous with their money and highly materialistic and just qualities that I felt like weren't really suiting me, so I went back with the thought that I didn't carefully answer the questions and just wanted to complete the assignment. Half of my result changed.

I got labeled as striver/experiencer first, then maker/experiencer second which I felt suit me much better. Strivers were people I felt like were top of the class and likes the finer and higher quality things in life.. not that I don't but makers desired more practical things and lacked interest in excess things. Which I felt like suited me a lot better. Many people in my group were labeled experiencer as well which we discussed most college students would fit into because college students were most likely to try new things and be interested in "new and exciting things."

I catch myself really irritated in owning things that I don't actively need or use. I've sold about +300 dollars worth of clothes and things in the past year and a half and I have a trash bag full of clothes and shoes underneath my bed right now that I don't have the motivation to try to sell to others.. I'm just going to take it home and hope I will find interest in them later. I'm glad I'm becoming more money conscious and just living out the level of minimalism that I want.

Other than that, things that have been running across my mind haven't been spanning past the next year ahead. I've been mostly preoccupied with getting through the week ahead, and passively thinking about my last year in school and slowly putting together plans for the gap year afterwards. As of right now, I'm learning that I am highly uninterested in finance, statistics, and accounting and highly interested in marketing and basically any field in Econ/Business that dips into actively studying or related with people and/or their habits.

It's been nice and very pleasing learning these little things about myself.