Lately, this song has just been really thought provoking when I listen to this song. I usually skip it on my iPod because it's usually too slow but one day on my shuttle ride to school I decided to listen to it and for a few weeks now, I'm hooked.
Ever since my mom got cancer and I got my heart shattered, I feel like I'm more in touch with my emotions. I'm really in love with things that are real and raw. I can't even relate to this song, or some articles, but when it seems like the words are just coming from something unfiltered and unaltered, it just seems to feel.. I can't explain it.
I read the lyrics over and over, then searched up the meaning. It made my heart sink and then settle. It's kind of the feeling I get when I watch American Beauty. It's like this weird happiness that rises from somber things.. I'm not even sure where I'm going with this. I'm god awful with words.
Anyway, it's pretty rainy in San Diego and this song was really fitting on the ride to work this morning.
I use the word really too much.
On my commute to work today, I was just thinking about how much I think and what I think about. Thinking seems to be the theme lately in my life. But back on topic.. I was just thinking about how I don't think I've ever been as happy as I am now. I am so satisfied and happy with so much different elements in my life that I really don't have much to complain about. All my problems are tiny, it's not knowing what to wear this morning, and how awful my hair can be certain mornings, but they are so superficial and petty compared to what they could be.
I feel thankful for life this morning. I was just browsing on the internet and going on BuzzFeed when I stumbled upon some list about why it's great to be human or something.. wait here it is:
http://www.buzzfeed.com/daves4/pictures-that-will-make-you-proud-to-be-a-human-being-aga
I'm literally at the brim of tears at work and I feel so silly.
...also my Instax is coming in the mail today - after 4-5 years of wanting one, I FINALLY just got the balls to just fucking BUY ONE.
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