Spent all my Lucky money from Chinese New Year on my little. Last year, without a job, I hoarded every single cent I had for Nick. I feel like life always has plans for me for my money. I just paid off a speeding ticket recently.. I can never make enough money.
I struggle really hard to get myself to spend any money on myself. I just bought a cardigan and splurged on two things I think I'll wear constantly. I'm learning to save up, and splurge on things I think I'll get a lot of use out of My closet is getting a lot smaller, filled with things I'll wear more often. I'm diggin' it. It's also teaching me to not buy anything unless I love it, and to splurge when I know I'll love it. Almost all my purchases I null over for long periods of time. This cardigan I just ordered? I think I've been stalking it for about +6 months now... maybe even the past year. The huge amount of clothes I got rid of from my closet has left me in fear from purchasing anything I won't use or wear constantly. I'm nothing less than determined to own anything that I feel "meh" about - I just HAVE to love it.
I need to sell the bag of clothes underneath my bed to make up for my fraternity's dues. I don't know why I can't relax and just spend money without constantly being aware of my bills. I look at others sometimes and I'm almost wish I could be more frivolous with my money on buying things to myself, but no.. I have to want something for so long, as simple as boxes for my bookshelf until I can convince myself to actually buy them. I guess it's a blessing in a disguise? I'm not sure.
Anyway, some updates in my life is that I'm active again in APO. I'm really diggin' the people I'm surrounding myself with. I was really nervous about becoming active within my fraternity again but I'm really diggin' it. I love my little, she's so cute.
Alright, next time.
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