this morning

Mama, I brought tears to my mom eyes
The first time she came and saw my new crib
(Been this way before, before)
(Dream of findin' so much more, more)
She hadn't been to L.A. since she had me here

My grandma wanted me to go to school and I didn't go
She saw me on the front page of the Detroit Free Press
And was freakin' out
Said, "Hey, baby, I guess you made the right decision"


this part of the song made me want to start crying in my car. recently nick and I played this game where we would just list off what we would buy if we had x amount of dollars.

in the end, I think the largest purchase I would do with my money is buy my parents a huge house. something where my dad can garden forever, and my mom can play just dance, have her own personal threatre, bowling alley, what have it, anything she names, she got it. 

lately I've been falling so fast, so deep, completely free fallin' plunging head first into life. I really could not have asked for a better support system or people to surround in my life.

I just get absorbed into this happy-go-lucky bubble of just like.. "WOW, IS THIS REAL LIFE? IF NOT, PLEASE DON'T WAKE ME UP."

man, it was so surreal being neck deep in the ocean yesterday, watching nick jump into the waves full body with the backdrop of the infinite ocean... I mean.. WOW, IS THIS REAL LIFE??

WOW.

WOW.

WOW.

just bought my coachella tickets this morning, outsidelands planned for this summer, and I'm gonna go to UCSD's Sun God Festival now.. life lately has just been a series of things I've been wanting to do all my younger youth coming into reality and more and each time it occurs, each time it becomes possible, I still feel like that 15 year old dreaming of it happening.

silly, I know