what am I doing?

I woke up today, took care of something I've been wanting to do with my mac, hung out with my little, went to class and got my midterm back with a really good score, and spent the evening with my babes. We grocery shopping and I just got done helping him with making dinner... he's doing the cooking part now.. I swear I'm so lucky that I got someone that loves cooking because I cannot cook for shit..

Anyway this is straying.
Man, that was a pretty weird dip into sadness this weekend. I feel like sometimes I'm just naturally inclined to be sad but to be honest, most days these days, I'm so happy. I feel so alive when I wake up and my skin soaks up the sun. It's getting hot and yeah, today was pretty much unbearable unless you were in an AC room, but it makes me so thirsty for the beach.. and it's so awesome that it's literally so close. That's something I'm thankful for; how living in Stockton and having anything remotely "fun" be an activity that requires travel and planning, and a long night drive home. And now everything is so close. A fancy bougie mall is literally one street over.. the beach is visible from certain parts of school which is down the road.. it's just so nice to the point where when you realize how nice it really is, it's like wow, is this reality? I would not have imagined myself at 21 here, but this is not a complaint. This is a statement of how stunned I am in awe.

I guess today is just me enjoying my day. It's all about the tiny things!

I'm so broke, and my family is the best support system in my life.. I just couldn't be happier.

This post has no fluidity at all.

I told my mom about how I want to save up for a road trip for my birthday and she understands that it's going to happen.. and I'm going to work as much as I can this summer to pay for everything I want myself. But I realize now that actually paying for everything is good year or two.. or five until I can. I am so excited for Outsidelands, and am buying my Coachella tickets this Friday with Nick! I'm hitting this point in my life where I'm like.. I'm freaking 20 years old, I just have to deal with being broke because I'm never going to be this young again, and hopefully that means that I'm not going to be this broke again.

Do you catch my excitement?
I'm just spilling with so much excitement for life that I just cannot contain it.